Hello lovelies! I’m in New Jersey until Wednesday visiting with my senior parents. No kids, no husband, just me and my parents. It’s lovely. We’ve got the Hamilton soundtrack blasting. I get my love of Broadway show tunes from them. My mother is a whiz at identifying show tunes and the name of their Broadway show going back over eighty years. It’s amazing.
Anyway, I digress.
What I really want to tell you right now is that I’m not perfect.
I’ve been away from home almost continuously since last Friday at 4 pm. I’ve done my best to stay on my Bright Line Eating weight loss food plan, but not all of my meals have been weighed. It’s those meals are my current nemesis. And again today we’re going out for a Korean soft tofu soup lunch. I’ll do my best. Nothing crazy like planning on eating sugar or flour, but my quantities will likely be all askew.
And do you know what? I’m okay with that sometimes. Because when I look at my whole life in balance, I don’t want to make myself crazy on BLE. I want to be happy and thin and free. I don’t get happy or free if I make myself a crazy person over being perfect.
Will it take me longer to be in my right sized body because my quantities are not perfect 100% of the time?
Yes, it most certainly will.
But I’m not in a rush to get to goal, because do you know what happens when I get to goal?
Nothing! I still have to preplan my food every day, not eat between meals and weigh all of my food for the rest of my life if I want to stay in my right sized body. So what’s the rush?
I’m just doing my best every day given the challenges that I face that day. If I put too much pressure on myself to be perfect, there’s a high chance that I will just throw in the towel knowing that I will never be perfect.
I’ve tried to be perfect. In fact, I go in and out of thinking, “I want to do this perfectly” and “I should be able to do this perfectly!” I’ve tried constructing mental hacks to make sure that I have squeaky clean bright lines day after day after day. I got a sponsor. I made promises and contracts. And do you know what? I was still NOT PERFECT.
So for now, this is me. Not perfect, but good enough. And I love myself more than I love the fantasy of diet perfection.
Do you know what I got yesterday? I got my first, “You’re not going to lose any more weight are you?” comment.
I had to laugh. I’ve been so ready for it because it’s something that we talk about a lot in Bright Line Eating: the comments you get when you are losing enough weight for people to notice. For some reason, this is a very common reaction. Because I was prepared for it, I didn’t even need to really respond. I could just smile and giggle inside.
So, Bright Line Eating is working for me, even without perfection. And letting myself be human is what I need today to be happy, thin and free.
I felt that it was important to let you know how I’m feeling today because I see way too many people throw in the towel on their chosen diet plan shortly after they realize that they haven’t been perfect on it and that being perfect might just be out of their reach at this time. If that’s what you are feeling, I don’t what that to happen to you.
Do you know what I do after my Bright Lines get a little wobbly? I do exactly what they tell me to do in BLE: I simply resume. No fanfare. No beating myself up. And from now on, no more big promises about how I’m not going to let that happen again. Just simply resume.
I hope that you are having a beautiful, peaceful day, fueling your body with things that your body thanks you for.
P.s. I think it’s really important to add that my opinions are my own and not the opinions of anyone else in or at Bright Line Eating.